How this road ends up

It sucks when you feel that the person you love doesn't need you
that the one you want doesn't miss you
that he/she can live so well without you
the evidence that whether you exist or not, it's so of no importance
while you bear his/her existence engraved on your head
having been mentally tattooed
thinking about h/h day and night, 24/7
and every time you recall it
you know that this loved one must be thinking about any other thing except you
and your thoughts about h/h and h/h thoughts about you, might never happen to meet
you try to recreate this person in dreams, in words, in songs, in activities, in other people
and all you get is to remain with a big empty space
'cause none of these things won't bring h/h back
you stop doing all that makes you feel even further away from h/h
as if you could get any closer by avoiding to move in the opposite way
it's meaningless
you will continue to be far, even if you walk toward h/h
you can't retain the liquid in your hands
you can't either catch the wind or attemp to make the free becomes a slave 

can you change yesterday?
you must go through the agonizing and harasser present tense
having your own mind hired as a full-time executioner
 
'say goodbye, don´t follow'
if you can't even be your own
don't expect somebody to be yours

sooner than later you will be getting into a new trouble again
that thing we use to call 'to fall in love'
no need to rush there
you already know how this road ends up

...broken.